Payday 2 - The Road to Hoxton

Hey, just a quick blog post to show a video that I made for the video game Payday 2. I am a huge fan of Overkills' Payday 2 and I can't believe the ammount of effort they have gone through tomexpand their universe and make it strong. One thing I enjoys is their live series which also expanded out into live action trailers for their upcoming DLC's. They've managed toemploy well known stars such as Derek Ray and Eric Etebari.

This video acts as a 'the road so far' from Supernatural which is usually shown at the start of the final episode of the season to show everything that has happened so far. In the video I show everything that has happened in the game up until the Hoxton breakout.

Please enjoy. :)

Love, Hate and Fear

"While this isn't exactly a blog post on television, movies or games, it is infact a piece of work I wrote myself after my councillor told me to write it, I still feel as though I would like to share it. The task was for me to write down what I believe the shapes and colours of love, hate and fear to be. This is just my perspective on these feelings and emotions which in some way fits into the theme of Emotion in Visual Art."

                                               -Dieter

Colors

I find that hate and love share both the same principal, basis and meaning. It is a strong feeling towards something which has heavily impacted your life in which both can be positive or negative. We need time to hate and time to love which balances out our personality and feelings.

At this point I would say that love and hate are both the color white. Each one starts off as nothing and ends nothing. Both of these emotions can take on many forms in many different ways and to me it seems impossible and implausible to try to define a certain color to them if they are constantly changing. In my personal experience I have gone through many forms of love and hate, each one daunting, painful and frightening. In my mind the memories are always there to remind me of what I wanted, what I had and what I lost. It started as white, went through many changes and inevitably, ended being what it was at the beginning, nothing.

The color of fear however I feel is different. While not exactly being the opposite, I find this color to be black. The biggest fear I feel that people have is the fear of the unknown. Unknown is usually thought of as being black in situation such as being scared of the dark, the idea of not knowing what is all around you which could do you harm, the fear of the end of life, people typically and justifiably think of death as being either a dark time or that when you die everything just becomes black whether they believe in the afterlife or not, or fear in the sense that you do not know what will happen in everyday life, such as losing your job, losing a loved one etc.

Shapes

Even though I feel the colors of these emotions are the same, the shapes are a completely different matter. In my opinion I feel the shapes represent more of the actions than the emotions.

Hate - To me hate has doesn't have a shape. The only way I could describe it would be a water, liquid type substance. Hate fuels emotions and can cause people to behave in erratic and irrational ways without thinking for either yourself or others. Hate can have many different meanings to people. With new information and situations, hate changes a person drastically and can force them to change their lives forever. Therefore, hate is the shape of water in the way that it can slip through your fingers and go wherever it want's if not contained properly.

Love - In an opposite way that hate has no shape, love, to me, is a very strong and bordered shape. I guess that it would be a square with very thick edges. Love, as well as hate, can make you act in irrational and out of character ways. But the difference between them is that with love you are doing it for a sole purpose, most notable to protect somebody. When you 'fall in love', a concept that I find diminishing and untrustworthy, you begins to find your life building around. For example, a square has four sides, four walls in which you build up a protective barrier. Your mind is now focused on making sure whatever is inside that barrier, whether it be a person, an object, a secret etc, stays safe and making sure it doesn't come to harm. Only when it begins to feel harm from the outside the sides expand and become jaggy, spiking out as to ward away and people who you believe mean harm. In this way, the person becomes more aggressive and unresponsive to common sense and advice from those who care about them. If the people feels harm from the inside, example, a person was cheating on them, the shape would them gradually or drastically lose it's form and mold into the hate substance. In this way I find that love is more dangerous than hate. 
It's sad that through many centuries love has been defined as the ultimate goodness in life. But in reality, all it is is just a weapon to fuel hatred if not used correctly.

As much as I tried, and it took me a long time, I just couldn't figure out what my color was for fear. I even went through a color chart trying to find one that I feel relates most but nothing came up. In the end I realized that I didn't have one color for fear. They were all fear. Every single color in that chart was the color of fear. We are all scared of so many different things, I myself am scared of so much even something as small as just talking to a cashier at a shop. Fear has no color because fear is everything.
Everything in this world has at least one person afraid of it no matter how another finds it safe.
Ironically that's what scares me the most.

Silent Hill 2 - Mary's Memory

The Silent Hill games are renowned for their beautifully done atmosphere of horror be it within the town itself or within the player through their use of turning people's fears against them. The town of Silent Hill is one of the most notorious places in the horror genre along with others such as Raccoon City (Resident Evil), Brennenburg Castle (Amnesia: The Dark Descent), SCP Foundation (SCP Containment Breach) and whatever locations the Slenderman games are set in.
But what makes Silent Hill rise above the others in terms of horror is that it actually makes links with the players themselves through their use of psychological techniques in design. The monsters themselves are usually all based off things that relate to people and their fears. For example in Silent Hill 2 there is a creature known as a 'Mandarin' which highly symbolises sexual frustration and perversion of men as does quite a few of the other creatures, more famously the bobble head nurses. The Mandarins have noticeably long, thick arms with what appear to be vagina's or lips on the ends. These easily symbolise the thoughts of lust and sexual desire not only from sex itself but from the intimacy of kisses and feeling close.

James Sunderland

The main point of this piece of writing is more to touch upon one creature which appears at the end of the game to serve as the final boss and to provide closure to the character of James Sunderland. Depending on the players actions and choices throughout the game James will either end up meeting his late wife Mary Shepherd or a woman who is her double, Maria. Whichever ones he meets initiates the final battle. To keep things simple I will refer to her as 'Dead Mary.'
Mary or Maria suddenly transforms into Dead Mary that is spead out over a metal frame, similar to a bed, her legs end in short tentacles rather than feet and she is suspended upside down screaming. Dead Mary attacks James with a swarm of black moths that appear from her mouth, using her tentacles to try and strangle him or slams into him with the metal frame she is in.
Before why I go into why the Dead Mary battle is very symbolic allow me to give you a quick recap on James and Mary's past.

James and Mary became a couple when they met at a house party many years ago and later got married. During their time together they vacationed in the town of Silent Hill and stayed at the Lakeview Hotel. Shortly after their blissful vacation Mary contracted an unknown, terminal disease and was forced to become bedridden in hospital. The doctors told her that she was given at most three years to live in which she must stay in the hospital for care. As time went on her appearance noticeably changed. Her skin became a sickly colour and she began to suffer hair loss. Because of this Mary began to act hostile towards the closest people to her, especially James. This caused James to stop visiting her in the hospital as he believed that it brought the worst out in her and caused tension in their marriage.
To keep herself happy and sane she thought of the joyful memories that she and her husband spent in Silent Hill. She would often talk about this to a young girl who kept her company in hospital, Laura, who would also often be there for her when James did not show up for visits. During the final days of Mary's life she was allowed to go home for a short while because the nurses thought that her death would come soon and she was afraid that she would not see James again before she died. James looked after Mary for the final few days. The disease was not what killed Mary as it was James who had suffocated her with a pillow as she lay in bed. James would then repress this memory and later on search for her in Silent Hill.

Many people who would be playing the game just thought that the final boss is just the last obstacle before beating the game and would possibly miss out on what is symbolised in the final moments.
Let's start first with the appearence of Dead Mary.

'Dead Mary'

First thing that you would notice is that the metal frame around Mary instantly screams that she is lying in a bed. Mary was bedridden for years in hospital and this was a massive part of her life to which James was not around for. Dead Mary is forcing James to see what she was put through in her time in hospital, confined to a flat cage to which she could not escape from.
The clothes she wears greatly resembles the apparel of what patients wear in hospital. It is also similar to the nurses that roam Brookhaven Hospital in Silent hill. Instead of flaunting the sexual side of the outfit, the nurses had their breasts pushed up and very short skirts, this outfit appears more blank and covers her chest and most of her head, excluding her face. The skirt remains short possibly representing that she still retains some part of her sexual attraction. The clothes are a dull shade of rustic brown like it has been left to rot and decompose which is what Mary felt like in hospital when she believed James had abandoned her to die.
Along with the thoughts that she has been left to rot, her skin is also a sickly colour like she has been dead for a while. Her disease caused her skin to change while she was still alive and Mary believed herself to look like a monster. It also represents that Mary feels like she is dead already to James as well as herself. As James was not around a lot when she was dying he would only think of her in good memories of when she was well therefore her face is not like the rest of her body. Dead Mary's face is beautiful with clear skin and deep red lipstick showing that James wants to kiss her once more. As I said before, her legs end in short tentacles which have turned a rotten black colour symbolising Mary being bedridden and being immobilised.

Dead Mary's face is left unaffected.

Dead Mary's head appears to be clamped into place by a large metal sheet which resembles a pillow. There are two ways that this can be taken. Either the head clamped into place shows that as Mary's disease went on her body began to shut down slowly and over time she was unable to move from the deterioration which fits well with her being confined to a metal frame also during the final encounter. It could also show that while James suffocated her with a pillow she could not defend herself or do anything as her head was held forcefully into place but succumb to James' murderous intent as she died.

The next important thing to note on is the way Dead Mary attacks James through out the fight.
One of her attacks is to spew out a swarm of black moths that attack James and stun him in place as they try to eat at his flesh. In many customs around the world moths usually represent death and decomposition, a symbol which appears many times in Silent Hill 2. One notable example is that Maria, a manifestation of James' will based on a wilder, sexier Mary, has a tattoo of a butterfly, which is usually known to represent rebirth, on her abdomen not unlike how a caterpillar is reborn into a beautiful butterfly. Maria is a creation of James to be a lustier more desirable version of Mary therefore reborn. But Dead Mary is a decomposed version of Mary and Maria so has lost it's desirability.

Mary afflicted with a terminal disease

The black moths are also clear to show the death of Mary and her basically decomposing from the disease not only physically but also mentally. The way that she uses black moths as an attack is what it was like during her life in hospital. She would lie there losing who she was not just in body but in mind which she would spread to James as well by acting hostile towards him. James' memories would rot away of Mary and their relationship would deteriorate for the next three years.
The fact that the moths appear to come out of her mouth is interesting as it represents Mary's dying thoughts and feelings which could not be expressed to James both out of fear and the fact that James didn't visit her any more. The moths represent the final breaths that Mary took during the last moments of her life before she was suffocated by James.

Nurses with a more sexual appearance

A somewhat unusual but plausible interpretation of the attack of the black moths would be James' desire to once again feel the passion and intimate touch of Mary, the bonding and sexual lust that he craves. Since Mary was ill and he loved her greatly he could not have his   frustration taken care of which pained him greatly and would take a large negative effect on their relationship namely it dying from lack of intimacy. It also would go on to create other sexual based manifestations in Silent Hill such as the aforementioned Mandarin, the hospitals nurses and to an extent, Maria.
The frame that Dead Mary uses represents her bed from the hospital and how she was bound to it. I believe that the attack in which she hits into James using it deeply represents the violent and malicious feelings she had while lying there. The negative feelings were anger at life for giving her the disease, the frustration at being forced to live in constant pain physically and mentally and a great anger at James for his abandonment of her.
The fact that she stays trapped in the frame while in monster form shows that she still feels trapped in her pain of being there and wants to punish James but showing him what it was like for her.

Dead Mary uses a tentacle to grab hold of James and wrap it tightly around his neck to strangle him. This is Mary's anger at James for smothering her and wants him to feel what her did to her.
Examining it futher it goes deeper than just symbolising her own death.
While Mary was in hospital James' life was put on hold and he felt like he could not move on without her and ended up resorting to alcohol abuse. After three years, her expiration date approaching, James was forced to look after her at home which further caused him more feelings of being tied down and not allowed to live his own life with Mary also yelling at him all the time. Having to pay her constant attention he felt somewhat angry at her and began to despise what she had become even though he knew it wasn't her fault. James felt like Mary was suffocating him and causing him nothing but pain and misery at taking over his life and forcing him to watch his own wife die before his very eyes. Even though he had deep feelings of hatred he killed her because he wanted to end her suffering.
Eventually James had broken down and sadly smothered her in her sleep causing him sadness but gave him an even greater feeling of relief and gratitude like her grasp had been released from round his neck.

Dead Mary uses her tentacle to strangle James

There is a secret part to the boss fight which isn't as well known.
If the player stays alive long enough (it doesn't matter if he damaged Dead Mary or not just along as her death is not caused by player inflicted wounds) then she will just fall to the ground and repeatedly whispers James' name. James then puts her out of her misery.
This represents James and Mary's life during the three years of pain. James tries to live a seperate life and runs away from her because he is scared and upset while Mary is bound to the hospital feeling trapped and lonely, desperately wanting James with her even with all the hostility. But eventually she comes towards the end of her life and is left to James' care. James puts her out of her misery as she relives her memories of their time together in Silent Hill...

                            "When will you ever stop making that mistake? Mary's dead. You killed her." - Maria

Breaking Bad - Stairway

Season three, episode ten, features one of the most tense episodes of Breaking Bad that I ever watched. The drugging of Walter by Jesse and thinking if he is gonna let slip that he let his girlfriend die by not doing anything to prevent her choking, the tension between the two as Walter takes more control over their 'partnership' and the family disputes outside work that threaten to break their own morale and sanity.

But to me, there was one scene in particular that stood out in this episode that only featured the two main actors, Bryan Cranston and Aaron Paul in their respective roles inside Frings meth lab. While trying all day to catch one fly, Walter won't let them work with a fly buzzing around which he says could mess up a batch of meth, Jesse has had enough and drugs Walter with sleeping pills so he can get to work without an overbearing dictator telling him how to do his job. Soon after they see the fly land on the ceiling Jesse has the idea of stacking many things up to make a very rickety platform. While Jesse climbs up, Walter holds it steady as best he can from the bottom in his dizzy state.

Jessie ascends the ladder.

Walter ponders on the state of his marriage and how his wife Skyler can't comprehend on why he cooks and does the things he does. Tensions begin to rise as Walter tells Jesse that the night Jane died he met her father in a bar and began a conversation about family. Slowly, but surely he begins to have deep feelings of regret and guilt for his actions. Before Jesse swats the fly Walt mutters "I'm sorry about Jane." Just before Jesse kills the fly, Walt falls to the ground asleep and misses his partners victory against the bothersome insect.

Walter refuses to let them work before the fly has been taken care of.

The scene here while holding and climbing the ladder has a lot to represent.
First of all there is a clear sense of who is rising and who is falling. Jesse being at the top of the ladder shows that he is moving on with his life and he has it all ahead of him. He is kind, charasmatic and has been trying to move forward past the tragedies he has had to endure. Walter however is sinking into an oblivion that he has made for himself. His marriage is failing, the lies are falling apart, he is changing from a kind family man to a vicious drug lord and has caused the deaths of others. It's a somewhat religious image of paths to heaven and hell, salvation and damnation.
Another way I see it is that Walter at the bottom of the ladder somewhat aspires to be like Jesse who has climbed to the top. In a way Walter is jealous of Jesse who seems to think of life as an easy chore and lives everyday in the moment. Walter is tied down by his family and responsibilites and is grasping at Jesse's freedom.


The final way I see it is escape. Jesse climbs to the top of the ladder to escape Walters reign of brutality and oppression. He is his own man and is desperate to show it rather than be controlled by Walt which he does by teaming up with his two best friends, Skinny Pete and Badger, by skimming some of the meth they make and selling it on their own. Walter knows he needs Jesse but finds it hard to admit it through his arrogance but feels it deep down. Being at the top of the ladder he desperately struggles to bring him back down because without him, it would all fall apart.

Walt, in his dizzy state, begins to let slip his personal feelings.

Even though this episode was the lowest budget of all the episodes, because Breaking Bad was a high budget show when they didn't have the finances they had to make an episode which didn't require much money, it has stayed with me as one of the most emotional just because of this one ladder scene. It makes you think whether their talking cleared the air of their tensions or just created more.

Bioshock Infinite - The First Step Of The Past

I've always thought that the introduction to any film, television show, video game or book is the most important part to set up story. Sure people have different ways of doing this. Some like to start it out with a high octane, action filled opening while others like to go softly and more subtle.
But my favourite has to be one where it feels like there isn't a great deal of things going on but it's enough to keep you interested. Tense yet calming.
The very beauty of introductions like these is that even though upon first glance you are seeing what you are meant to be noticing, you are also being secretly shown hidden messages and clues at what happened, what is happening and what is going to happen.
With the case of Bioshock Infinite this is a very important plot point to do with the past, present and future. I find the introduction to Infinite very beautifully done even if this piece of writing is to do with my own interpretation of events in the timeline.
Please allow me to explain what I find so fascinating about the introduction to an amazing piece of art.

Booker DeWitt

Booker DeWitt is lost.
His life, even he realises, isn't worth much and that he's not a good man. He is filled with regret and despair from his past as a soldier. Now he has his own private investigation business and gambles his life away with dangerous people in New York. After having bad luck with his gambling habits, two people request that he bring back a girl from Columbia to erase his newly created debt. DeWitt is somewhat confused by this but realises that it must be done.
These two same people take him to a lighthouse off the coast of Maine for him to start his debt investigation of the girl. Upon leaving him he asks if anyone would meet him there to which he gets no response.
Now here I believe the message starts and is a very subtle way of retelling his past.

DeWitt's personal belongings bearing his regiments insignia.

At the foot of the lighthouse is a young sixteen year old Booker, armed with a handgun he was just given, who has just started his life as a member of the 7th Cavalry Regiment of the United States Army.

Upon entering the lighthouse, the first thing DeWitt sees is a basin full of water which is used to cleanse man of his sins. He rejects it as a silly notion which reflects his life as a soldier. There is no God for him to fear or worship so his life as a state appointed killer is made easier and allows him to take part in acts of violence.
His violence is shown as Booker travels up the stairs of the lighthouse to find that there is a mess, a scuffle has taken place and the more he travels up the more mess he finds. Booker picks up a phone but hears nobody which shows that nobody is listening, God is not there.
The debris from whatever event happened represents DeWitt when he took part in the brutal massacre of Native Americans at Wounded Knee in 1890.

Booker staring into the basin in the lighthouse.

Finally Booker reaches the top floor but finds only a man strapped to a chair with a sackcloth over his head with a wound in his head.  (There is no certainty of a gunshot.)

After a sergeant had accused him at Wounded Knee of having a Native American bloodline, Booker brutally tortured and murdered the Native Americans to avoid being stigmatized by his fellow men. Here he had earned the name 'The White Injun' because of his taking trophies from his victims, namely scalping them.
The corpse in the chair in the lighthouse has been brutally tortured before death, as seen by the pool of blood, a bloody chisel and a knife nearby. With the blood soaked sack cloth over his head it has the visually similar look of man who has been scalped.
A note is attatched to the man which reads 'Don't disappoint us' which would have been what the soldiers of the army that looked up to Booker said which led to him being known as a hero.

The body in the lighthouse.

As Booker reaches the light in the lighthouse he is pained by loud noises and a deep red coloured sky. The cries of his victims, the deep colour of red seen at every battle he participated in. The sea of blood underneath. After the battle, as everybody called him a hero, DeWitt felt nothing like one. He was pained with regret, shame and despair.
As the only one who seemed to regret what event occured there he felt very alone and isolated just as he is at the top floor of the lighthouse.
Booker sits down in a chair and is clasped into place and cannot escape no matter how much he struggles.
This is his mind not letting go of what he has done and forcing him to think of everything he has caused to others.

Booker approaches Preacher Witting for the baptism.

As the chair rotates forward suddenly his gun falls from his jacket holster into the flames of the shuttle below.
For the first time in his life, after what happened at Wounded Knee, he begins to think of redemption and forgiveness. He wants to be absolved of his sins and become a new man. His gun cast into the flames represents his fear of hell and the notion of one day paying for what he has done as a soldier. At this point he wanted it all to end, he no longer wanted to be known as Booker DeWitt, the White Injun, the hero of Wounded Knee.
To be reborn after the battle, Booker visited a priest, Preacher Witting, and attended a baptism ready to leave his old life and start anew.
But suddenly moments before being baptised he stopped and rejected it, saying that his sins could not be washed away by a 'dunk in the river' and continued on being Mr DeWitt.
In the lighthouses chair, he looks out of the window at the water below and see's a reflection of himself, like the reflection he would have seen staring down into the water at his baptism. As the shuttle leaves the lighhouse it mimics Bookers day of rejection. With all the water around him he could start a new life but instead decides to leave just like how the shuttle takes him away.

DeWitt staring out of the shuttle window.

"I don't know, brothers and sisters. But this one doesn't look clean to me..."
                   ―Preacher Witting

Yakuza 4 - Hamazaki Goh

YAKUZA 4 - HAMAZAKI GOH

If you have played Yakuza 3 and 4 you will probably disagree with this post as you would know him as an antagonist and partly turned protagonist. But I find his story has more meaning than just someone trying to get to the top. I'll give you a quick recap of who he is.

Hamazaki Goh

Goh is the tough and cunning leader of the Hamazaki Family using intimidation and business connections to further his ambitions. The Hamazaki Family only has ten members which he used to rise to the top ranks of the Tojo clan after taking over the Yokohama branch of the Chinese Snake Flower Triad by secretly working with Lau Ka Long.
When a resort deal threatened Kazuma Kiryu's (the protagonist) orphanage, Sunshine Orphanage, Hamazaki looked for taking a piece of it for himself and building a secret Triad casino on the land. When Lau Ka Long, the leader of the Snake Flower Triad is killed by Kiryu the Hamazaki Famly is attacked with their HQ and all of it's assests destroyed. Hamazaki then goes into hiding.

Hamazaki confronts Kiryu at the end of the game in anger at losing everything because of him. Kiryu tells him that it's not too late to mend his ways and start new again. As Kazuma reaches out to shake his hand Hamazaki pulls out a knife and stabs him in the abdomen. Goh tells him that he would rather die than live in personal shame. Even as he lies bleeding in the street, Kiryu tells him that he still believes in people and that they can change if they want to. Hamazaki is then tackled to the ground by a couple of Kiryu's friends and police sirens are heard in the background.

From this round up of the events of Yakuza 3 he really doesn't seem like a nice or likeable character. Just a selfish Yakuza member looking to rise to the top and take the power just like the ambitions of so many others. But here's where things begins to change the outlook of him in a better light.

Hamazaki while in prison

In Yakuza 4 we find out that Hamazaki Goh is in prison and makes friends with another inmate, Taiga Saejima, who has just been transferred. After Saejima was beaten and tortured Hamazaki was able to talk to him. They discussed why Saeijima was in prsion because of a shady hit he pulled off resulting in the deaths of eighteen of the Ueno Seiwa clan members and that he misses his sister who he hasn't seen in twenty five years. Hamazaki then trusted him with his escape plan saying it needs two people and he is perfect for it. While breaking out the two are just about free before a head prison guard shoots Hamazaki multiple times. He tells Saejima to get away while he can and to just leave him.
Goh then later washes up on the beach of Sunshine Orphanage and find out that it is run by Kiryu. The two put aside their differences and begin to talk of Saejima and the conspiracy surrounding the hit that occured twenty five years ago. Upon finding out this new information two two proceded to Kamurocho to look for more information only to run into Saejima's sister, Yasuko,  completely by accident. While looking around a deceased Tamoshiro's office, guards from the prison show up and ambush them. Telling Kiryu and Yasuko to run he holds off the prison guards but is unfortunately shot in the back. He faints and is taken to hospital some time later but ultimately succumbs to his wounds.

Kiryu wounded by Hamazaki on the streets of Kamurocho

The thing I find sad about this is the face that Kiryu was right. Hamazaki didn't see it at the time as his mind was only focused on revenge on Kiryu for all that he lost. Attempting to kill Kiryu got him sent to prison and in there I assumed that he did begin to rethink his life. Not that he has much of a chance to make a new one, it did however give him a chance to create a new way of thinking. Even though he mainly wanted to use Saejima to help him escape after seeing his strength, he eventually got to learn of his story and felt somewhat touched and decided to help him out even after he escaped badly wounded. Washing up on the shores of Okinawa and being helped by a child of Sunshine Orphanage he met with Kiryu. Showing no hostility towards Hamazaki, only confusion and caution, he listens to what Hamazaki has to say and realizing he has rethought his life although now being on the run.

Towards the end he helps out Yasuko and Kiryu escape from the police which ultimately led to his death. It shows that he really had changed and wanted to help Kiryu, Yasuko and Saejima with their mission.
I just find it sad that he died protecting the person he once wanted to kill. It must take a lot to sacrifice yourself for someone like that. Kiryu showed respect for Hamazaki in return by keeping his body at Sunshine Orphanage until he could give him a proper burial.

"G-Guess I've gone soft" - The final words of Hamazaki Goh

I Saw The Devil - Ending Scene

Soohyun (Byung-hun Lee) shortly after finally killing his fiance's murderer after days of torturing him.

While this film immediately starts off with the brutal murder of Soohyun's fiance, his emotions are very much held back. As a special agent he must remain calm and collected which he manages to very well. It is not until the end of the movie where he has tortured his fiance's killer, killed a few of his associates, bashed in a criminals balls with a hammer, unintentionally caused the death of some of his friends that we finally see what has been locked up inside him. Listening to the final moments of the murderer (Choi Min-sik) through a radio planted by him he walks down calmly down the road as the killers familt turns up. Once he hears the death of the killer he finally realizes that it solves nothing. Even though he has got revenge on a brutal psychopath he goes back to knowing that his fiance is dead and will never be at his side again. As he walks away from the house, he breaks down in the road and cries for a long time struggling to keep himself up. This is the side of a revenge killer we rarely get to see.

I Saw The Devil

2010

South Korea

Dir: Kim Ji-woon

Writer: Park Hoon-jung

Staring: Byung-hun Lee, Choi Min-sik

Introduction to Emotion

Over the last few months my life has changed drastically. I've been through good times, bad times and some times when I wished I would jsut wake up. Moving out and going to college is a big push I needed to get through life and over this time I have been able to do a lot more than I did while living at home. For a start, during the summer I played a lot of games, I watched a lot of films and tv shows and did a lot more of my writing. I even started to storyboard a story I have been writing for over a year as a push to motivate myself and watch it all come together. It has actually turned out to be a really big help.

(So far it is still only known as Test but I'm starting to think that maybe it's a fitting title.)

One of the biggest things I have studied when watching and playing is the emotions of the characters. That for me is the biggest thing that I take note of and carefully analyse to try and put myself in the mind of the different characters. Doing this completely changes the way the movie feels.

For example, in my storyboard the guy on the bottom left and his brother to the right of him are both out for revenge against their father, the man above to the left. However, even thoguh they want the same thing their views are different as they have much different lives. The left brother is somewhat violent and short tempered who wants revenge against his father because he thinks he cares little for his family. The brother on the right is a smart, calm, collected college student who wants revenge against their father for leaving their mother in a depression which led to her death. They have two very different mindsets.

This blog is about the things I have seen in movies, tv shows and video games which I find emotional moments whether they are deaths, sad moments, happy moments or just breakthroughs in people's lives. Obviously there will be spoilers for each of them so be careful if you do not wish to see them.
I hope you enjoy this blog.

- Dieter